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  • Mar 09 / 2014
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A Couple’s Letter to Their Baby Girl

One of my sister-in-law’s dearest friends just had a baby. This is a letter that she and her husband wrote to their newborn little girl. This precious child is truly a testament to God’s sovereign care and power, and her parents’ faith a testimony to the rest and peace he gives his children. Please read and be encouraged to worship the Lord, who alone is the giver of life!

Dear Avonlea,

You, my darling, are my hero. For the last couple of months, your doctors were telling us, up until moments before your birth, that you would be incompatible with life… that we may get minutes, hours or maybe days with you… that you would not be able to breathe or feed without intervention… that you were a lost cause. They told us to begin going to grief counseling. They told us we could try again soon. Many told us not to fight for you, to let you go.

But our God is bigger than the statistics that made those doctors write you off as “just one of those unfortunate things…” He had a plan for you all along. He chose to use YOU, our sweet baby, to proclaim His authority over life to the medical community who was preparing for your death. He built you in my womb to be strong, and VERY much compatible with life! You came out breathing, screaming… fighting.

You have since blown every single one of your doctors away. Men with more letters following their name than I can count have looked me in the eye and called you “unusual,” “surprising,” “remarkable.”

You should have severe facial disfigurements. You have none! You should have extra or missing digits and yet I have counted 10 perfect fingers and 10 perfect toes over and over. You should have at LEAST one life-threatening internal anomaly. You have only a mild heart defect that, since birth, has begun healing itself! You have healthier reflexes and responses than some babies born without a trisomy!

The reason babies born with your condition are considered terminal is often labeled “failure to thrive.”

YOU, daughter, are thriving.

…The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. We told Him the night before you were born how much we love you, that we desired to be your parents and that we WANTED you… but that if His will was to take you from us, we were willing to give you back to Him. We begged God NOT to take you, but chose to trust that His plan is good and believe that HE IS GOOD. No matter what.

He could still take you away at any moment… But we will forever be thankful that we got to meet you! We have had 5 beautiful days with you so far, and you are not showing the doctors any signs that you’ll be leaving us anytime soon  If this short time is all we ever get, your Dad and I will be forever grateful. No amount of time with you could ever be enough, but the time we HAVE had thus far has been more than we could’ve ever hoped for.

You are amazing. You are a miracle! You are our daughter. And you are, ultimately, His.

We’re honored to be your parents!

We love you. More than you could ever, ever know.

Mommy & Daddy

  • Nov 30 / 2013
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Abortion, Biblical Application, Slavery

God, His Son Not Sparing

Abortion is not new. I don’t just mean because it’s been legal for close to double my lifetime of 22 years. No, the murdering of children has been around for centuries. It may not look the same through the ages, but for centuries and millennia, people have been putting their children to death.

We know from various passages in the Old Testament, (Lev. 18:21; 2 Kings 16:3; 21:6; Jer. 32:35) that many cultures  surrounding the Promised Land worshiped Molech – a false god who was worshiped by the burning of children. In the Law, the Lord harshly condemns this child-sacrificing worship of false gods, along with the worship of all idols. Leviticus 20:1-6 is a vivid warning against such murderous idolatry. The Lord commands that all who offer their children as a sacrifice to Molech ought to be stoned. This is a serious sin against the Lord, because child sacrifice destroys the image of God as an act of worship to an idol; idols that are “silver and gold, the work of human hands. They have mouths, but do not speak; they have eyes, but do not see; they have ears, but do not hear, nor is there any breath in their mouths” (Psalm 135:15-17). For millennia, humans have been destroying their fellow image-bearers of God’s glory, for the sake of idols that are crafted by human hands.

Also in Psalm 135, the Psalmist said in verse 18 that all who make these idols will become like them, as do all who trust in them. We see this truth in the fact that many evil, idolatrous people have also required the death of children. The Christmas season  reminds us of a well-known mass-murder of children. Every year, we read the Christmas story and glorify God for the dreams by which he led the Magi to return to their homes by another route so as not to tell Herod where Jesus was, and the dream by which he led Joseph to take Mary and Jesus to Egypt to escape Herod’s wrath. And then we grieve to know that many Hebrew boys under the age of two were slaughtered by Herod’s decree in his vain attempt to kill the one who was born King of the Jews. (Matthew 2:1-18)

This, however, was not the first time that Israel suffered the mass murder of their children. When a new Pharaoh who did not know Joesph rose to power in Egypt, he felt threatened by the Hebrews because the Lord blessed them and caused them to multiply. So, he ordered that every male child was to be put to death. When Shiphrah and Puah obeyed God rather than men, thus refusing to obey Pharaoh in his sin, he ordered that these baby boys be thrown into the Nile. (Exodus 1:8-22)

The common thread in all of these accounts, from the worship of Molech to Pharaoh and Herod, is Satan’s subtle hatred toward those who bear the image of God. Satan hates children because of God’s promise in Genesis 3:15 that the seed of the woman would one day crush the head of the serpent. Yet in both of these accounts, God rescued and raised up a deliverer for his people. From the Nile he rescued Moses, and from Bethlehem he rescued his Son.

The enemy’s attack on children is indeed subtle. These child sacrifices were never offered as a direct declaration of allegiance to the devil – they were offered as worship to appease a false god and gain his protection, to remove the threat of a mighty nation, and to remove the threat that Israel’s true and rightful King posed to the wicked Herod. The devil works in a similar subtle manner today through the slaughter of the unborn. Abortion is not seen as devil-worship. It is a woman’s right to reproductive freedom. It is because now isn’t the right time. No one would understand. I do not say this to belittle the circumstances in which women find themselves; many mothers are in devastating circumstances and they truly don’t see a way out. However, we must see that murdering children is not the answer. The history of child-sacrifice and the mass-murder of children in Israel’s history teaches us that truth. No, the answer is something glorious. The answer is the child who was rescued from the slaughter in Bethlehem all those years ago. The answer is Jesus, the holy Lamb of God who was led to the slaughter for us.

This is the amazing truth. While false gods and evil kings demand the death of children to appease their wrath, the one true God, the LORD alone, sent HIS Son into the world bear the weight of his wrath against sin for those who believe. This truth is shocking. We as people deserve God’s wrath for our sin. We deserve to die. We deserve to be enslaved to false gods, evil kings, our own convenience, fear, and the opinions of others – leading to our death, and the death of our unborn children. The writer of Hebrews shows us what happens when this slavery to fear meets the Son of God, made flesh for us:

Since therefore the children share in flesh and blood, he himself likewise partook of the same things, that through death he might destroy the one who has the power of death, that is, the devil, and deliver all those who through fear of death were subject to lifelong slavery. For surely it is not angels that he helps, but he helps the offspring of Abraham.  Therefore he had to be made like his brothers in every respect, so that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in the service of God, to make propitiation for the sins of the people (Hebrews 2:14-17).

We deserve this life of  slavery, but God sent his Son to deliver us. This is unfathomable. We, who sacrifice children to worship false gods like Molech, or abort them for idols of the heart like convenience, timing, security, fear, reproductive rights, and the opinions of others, have been given God’s Son as the only sacrifice that can free us from our fear of death. Elsewhere in Hebrews, we are given a bigger picture of what Jesus’ sacrifice has done for us – “Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need (Heb. 4:14-16). This is what our gracious God requires of us – to trust wholly in the sacrifice he has provided. Jesus is the merciful and faithful high priest for all who trust in him. Calling women not to abort their children is primarily about calling them to trust in the sacrifice of God’s Son for the forgiveness of sin.

This is the hope for all people, including  men and women who have been involved in abortion. Mothers and fathers, clinic directors, doctors, nurses, and escorts can all find forgiveness by repenting of their sin and trusting in Jesus for forgiveness. Through death, Jesus destroyed the one who has the power of death – the devil. And he delivers ALL who through fear of death were subject to lifelong slavery (Heb. 2:14-15). There is grace and forgiveness for all who put their hope in the sacrifice of God’s Son for the forgiveness of their sin!

The words of the hymn “How Great Thou Art”, in a verse added by Stuart Hine when he translated the hymn into English, perfectly describe the amazing nature of this truth. “And when I think, that God his Son not sparing, sent him to die,  I scarce can take it in; that on the cross, my burden gladly bearing, he bled and died, to take away my sin.” When we meditate on this truth, how could we respond with anything other than, “Then sings my soul, my saviour, God, to Thee, how great Thou art, how great Thou art!”

  • Nov 14 / 2013
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Speaking the Truth in Love

What does it mean to “speak the truth in love”? (Ephesians 4:15) Does it mean that you only speak truth when confronting or rebuking sin, using only kindness,  gentleness, and sensitivity  in your words? What exactly is “the truth”? Is it not the Gospel? So in speaking “the truth” should we not be sharing the Gospel?

This brings me to a conversation that I had with a young lady who had just recently had an abortion at EMW. She spoke of the sidewalk and how she was horrified and afraid to walk past all of the people lined up in her path…especially the screamers. She only vaguely remembered the few people that told her that Jesus loved her and wanted her to save her baby’s life or that there was help for her, should she change her mind. What she remembered was the ones who were yelling, “You’re a murderer!” “If you kill your baby you will burn in hell!” Maybe there is some truth to what was being shouted. Does aborting a baby make one a murderer? Well, yes it does. An unborn child is a living human and taking a human life does, in fact, make one a murderer. Is she going to burn in hell for taking her baby’s life? Quite possibly…not just for taking her baby’s life, but for her sin in general. We don’t know that she won’t turn to Jesus and the truth, the Gospel, later. We always have hope in Jesus but in not knowing the truth, she is presently destined for hell. Is the shouting of condemning words effective in changing the minds of young women entering the abortion clinic? Definitely not. Is the arrogant and self righteous anger behind those harsh words sharing the truth, as in the Gospel? No, it’s not.

So how do we change this? How do we, as saints, speak the truth in love when the condemnation seems to overpower us? For one, we need to pray that the truth will be heard over the harassment. Pray for divine intervention, that the Gospel being shared in love will be planted in the young ladies, the escorts, the clinic workers, and those who have been misled…that it will take root and be fruitful. We also need to step out of our comfort zones. While rebuking the sin of abortion, we also need to rebuke the sin of self righteous anger in those who are shouting hostile words. It is definitely uncomfortable to confront someone who claims to be a believer. It’s more uncomfortable to think that we may have left them destined for hell. Finally, we should  keep encouraging our brothers and sisters to join us on the sidewalks. We are the light, God has chosen us to be that. The darkness cannot live in light. What would it look like if we flooded the sidewalks with light, with saints sharing the Gospel, the truth in love? This is how God uses us to give grace to the lost. Ephesians 4:29 says:  “Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.” Let him use us to speak the truth in love and to share his grace and mercy, even if it gets uncomfortable.

Isaiah 58:6-10

“Is not this the fast that I choose:
to loose the bonds of wickedness,
to undo the straps of the yoke,
to let the oppressed go free,
and to break every yoke?
 Is it not to share your bread with the hungry
and bring the homeless poor into your house;
when you see the naked, to cover him,
and not to hide yourself from your own flesh?
 Then shall your light break forth like the dawn,
and your healing shall spring up speedily;
your righteousness shall go before you;
the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.
 Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer;
you shall cry, and he will say, ‘Here I am.’
If you take away the yoke from your midst,
the pointing of the finger, and speaking wickedness,
 if you pour yourself out for the hungry
and satisfy the desire of the afflicted,
then shall your light rise in the darkness
and your gloom be as the noonday.

  • Nov 09 / 2013
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Abortion, Biblical Application, Sidewalk Counseling Ministry

Refuge in the Justice of God

“Oh Lord my God, in you do I take refuge.” ~Psalm 7:1

My church is studying the Psalms on Wednesday evenings, and I have been tremendously encouraged in this time of digging into the prayers and praise of the psalmists. Through our study of Psalm 7, I was very encouraged by the reminder that God is a just God. This prayer of David provides great hope for me as I seek to be faithful in the ministry of sidewalk counseling.

Sidewalk counseling is a hard and heartbreaking ministry, but it has also been immensely encouraging. It is heartbreaking to watch woman after woman, week after week, walk into the abortion clinic. It is difficult to bear the lies, accusations, and blasphemies of the clinic escorts who have heard the gospel countless times and spit in the face of God by their rejection of the truth. For all of the hardships and persecution, there is also great grace to be joyful in the Lord. Every week, I am reminded by the faithfulness of my brothers and sisters who lovingly preach the gospel, that Jesus is Lord. Even though we don’t always see fruit in terms of women changing their minds (though the Lord has been turning many hearts recently!) the gospel is still true. Jesus is the sovereign king. He is our refuge.

I am also encouraged by the testimony of the Scriptures. Every week, wisdom cries aloud in the streets (Prov. 8:1-2), and in response, there are those who find wisdom and find life, obtaining favor from the Lord. Yet others fail to find wisdom, injure themselves, and prove that in hating wisdom, they love death (Prov. 8:35-36). It is true that those who hate wisdom  love death. I see it every week as many people fight for the right to murder precious unborn children. Their hatred of wisdom and rejection of the gospel literally translates into loving death. This is a grievous reality, but believers can take heart knowing that the Bible has spoken truly. And God is our refuge.

In response to this, I have often wondered whether it is more appropriate to be angry or grieved toward those who are “pro-choice”. This is where David’s prayer in Psalm 7 is particularly helpful. This prayer is inspired by the Holy Spirit, and as my pastor said, “This prayer was recorded because it works”. In this passage, David was experiencing unjust persecution, and he prayed for God’s justice to be poured out on his enemies.

Oh, let the evil of the wicked come to an end, and may you establish the righteous – you who test the minds and hearts, O righteous God! My shield is with God, who saves the upright in heart. God is a righteous judge, and a God who feels indignation every day. If a man does not repent, God will whet his sword; he has bent and readied his bow; he has prepared for him his deadly weapons, making his arrows fiery shafts.  ~Psalm 7:9-13

This passage is a terrifying picture of God’s wrath against sin. His violent hatred for sin is clear in the battle imagery of his whetted sword and his drawn and ready bow. Yet this passage is also immensely hopeful for sinners – God’s deadly weapons are not against those who repent. This is such a glorious truth, and has helped me greatly in formulating my thinking and prayers for abortion advocates. It is good and right for believers to pray for God to pour out his righteous judgment on the wicked, but it is also good and right to pray that they would repent of their sin, and look on Christ with eyes of faith to see that he has taken the wrath they deserve, as he has taken the wrath that we deserve. He is our refuge; may many on the sidewalks turn to him for refuge, too.

Like David, let us take comfort in the justice of God. Let us remember the hope and truth of the gospel that perfectly satisfies God’s righteous justice.

But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the Law and the Prophets bear witness to it – the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus. ~ Romans 3:22-26

So, let us take refuge in our God as we speak for those who cannot speak for themselves as we pray this inspired prayer, and as my pastor said, let that prayer end with our hope in God as our refuge playing out in thanksgiving.

“I will give to the Lord the thanks due to his righteousness, and I will sing praise to the name of the Lord, the Most High.” ~Psalm 7:17

  • Nov 02 / 2013
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The Inadequacy of Being Pro-Life


People are pro-life for many different reasons. Recent statistics evidence a slight tilt in public opinion to a more conservative position on the issue of abortion in this country. While the results of such polls can fluctuate, what is sure is that a large number of Americans identify themselves as “pro-life” to some degree. Yet, with such a large cross-cultural demographic comprising the pro-life movement, inevitably there is a wide range of belief systems represented as well. In many cases, religious differences are set aside for the common goal of the rescue of the unborn. Here one’s personal religious convictions are said to be divisive, and therefore out of place in the discussion. Yet, I would suggest that separating biblical doctrine from pro-life ethics is a damning dichotomy.

Let me state up front that I am thankful for those who speak for the sanctity of human life. The defense of the helpless in any culture is an evidence of God’s common grace upon a people. Governments that uphold righteous laws and punish wickedness are instruments of God’s justice (Romans 13:1-7). Likewise, those who champion the cause of life are, in some sense, agents of God’s restraint of evil in a society.

That being said, I think that it is a fundamental misstep to try to divorce one’s theology from one’s pro-life ministry. I have said many times on the sidewalk that the only reason I am pro-life is because of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Indeed, if Jesus has not been raised from the dead, I could not care less what a woman does with her body and/or family. But in the resurrection, Jesus defines what it is to be truly human. The problem is not ultimately unfavorable legislation, but rather, global rebellion against the sovereign king of kings. An honest look at one day of your life betrays your guilt before God. The Apostle Paul says that the God’s Law speaks “so that every mouth may be stopped, and the whole world may be held accountable to God” (Romans 3:19). None are exempt from his verdict. No one can get off the hook without serving the just sentence for cosmic treason.

It is just at this point that the person and work of Jesus comes clearly into view. When one understands how dire their situation is, they begin to grasp the necessity of a savior. Jesus came into the world to stand in the place of his people, bearing the full punishment of sin in order that they may be reconciled to God by faith and repentance (1 Peter 3:18). Or as the author of Hebrews says, “Consequently, [Jesus] is able to save to the uttermost those who draw near to God through him, since he always lives to make intercession for them” (Hebrews 7:25). This is truly glorious news for sinful people who come to Christ: he takes your punishment and keeps you secure in him for all of eternity.

When the pro-life narrative is set in context of a biblical worldview, primary and secondary issues emerge. Though a 5 second interaction outside an abortion clinic may consist of pleading for the life of a child, the ultimate aim of a truly pro-life ministry should be the salvation of souls. This is of primary importance. Any call to choose life that does not include a call to repentance is part of a culture of death that stretches all the way back to Genesis 3. There are many on the last day who will say, “Lord, Lord, did we not sidewalk counsel for years in your name, and legislate abortion restrictions in your name,” as though a pro-life badge is an entry card into the favor of God. Yet, all those who would cling to their righteousness on the day of judgment will be found without refuge. This is a hard truth, but one clearly delineated in the Bible (cf. Matthew 7:21-23).

I would implore you to discern the motivation for your pro-life ministry. Speaking for the unborn is necessary, but it is not enough in and of itself. Our ministry here is first and foremost about the gospel. We are pro-life because God has caused us to be born again to new life in Christ. We seek to rescue the unborn in obedience to the God who saves. But ethics, however right, without sound theology is deadly. Both pro-life and pro-choice proponents are unified in this: both are desperately in need of the forgiveness of sins. The good news is that Jesus is very much a pro-life savior.

  • Oct 27 / 2013
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Abortion, Biblical Application, Pro-life

Is There Blood on the Hands of the Spectator?

The Two Brothers

goodsamaritan3There were two young brothers who went to the same school. The younger of the two was clumsy and prone to hurting himself. Instead of trying to act tough, he would lay on the ground and cry, yearning for sympathy for his (often illegitimate) injuries. This occurred almost daily in the middle of the schoolyard. In contrast, the older brother was athletic, intelligent, and liked by all. He loved to obey the rules, which endeared him to students and teachers alike.

One day, the younger brother was on the ground in the yard crying and fussing, nursing his wounds. But today was different. Instead of the other kids just walking by, they began to tease him, and then pinch him, and then really try to hurt him. He was alone in the middle of this group of attackers. This only gave him more injuries to wail over and he felt more and more alone as those he thought to be his friends were mocking him.

But then the older brother approached the scene. With one word he could have called off those who were hurting his brother, but instead he observed what was happening and then ran in the other direction leaving his brother defenseless. He ran away priding himself in the fact that he was not the one hurting his brother, it was all those other bad kids.

The Mugging

And this situation happened once before, but on a much grander scale. There was a man traveling in a relatively dangerous part of the world. One day he was walking down a street that was known to be particularly dangerous. His worst fears materialized as a group of armed men approached, demanding all his money. He quickly gave them all that he had, hoping that was the end of it, but then they beat him badly, stripped him of his clothes, and left him unconscious.

Fortunately, a leader in his church walked by soon after the mugging. But this leader panicked. His eyes caught a glimpse of a bloodied hand sticking out from behind a rock. Without even thinking his feet hurried to the other side of the street. It is probably too late to do anything anyway. Honestly he did not give the situation a second thought, his mind distracted by searching for a sermon illustration for the coming Sunday.

A second man walked by and this was a man who happened to be from the victim’s hometown. Seeing that same bloodied hand he gasped. How could something like this happen?  This city is terrible, full of crime that must be stopped. These thoughts rushed through his mind as his feet hurried to the other side of the street. Subconsciously he prided himself in being a moral member of society who would never do such a thing as hurt another person.


And then there is the story of mass murder that took place in a very powerful nation. This country prided itself in having washed its hands of prejudice. No longer was it acceptable to hire or fire someone based on his or her gender, race or sexual orientation. This country, once having once been guilty or enslaving another race, now hung its head in shame and sought at all costs to right those wrongs. This country was benevolent, welcoming refugees seeking asylum from oppressive governments, giving food to those experiencing famine, and sending relief to victims of natural disaster all over the world. This was a country of wealth, power, and change. A country that could dream of something, make it happen, and the rest of the world would follow. Yet, there was a lingering prejudice within the borders of this country:  the prejudice against the size of a person. The laws were such that it was legal to murder those who were smaller, who were yet to be born.

As if that is not shocking enough, the oft-benevolent members of this society habitually looked the other way. Every day powerful lawyers passed by the buildings where it was legal to kill children rushing to work in order to battle for justice for those companies whose patents were being infringed upon. People with Christian bumper stickers avoided the streets with these killing-mills on them altogether. They hated this evil so much that they did not even want to see be around it. Pastors in churches loudly preached about loving refugees and fighting sex trafficking but hesitated to mention the killing of unborn children because they did not want to offend. The mass murder continues to this day…

Who is Guilty?

In the story of the two brothers, was the older brother innocent?  In a sense he was innocent of mocking his brother because he simply did not participate in that action. He ran the other way. But what was he guilty of? He was guilty of a lack of love, a cold heart consumed with self-preservation rather then mercy, a heart that wanted to maintain his popularity. A heart that failed to put himself in his brothers shoes. He may have been innocent of one sin, but he was guilty of a multitude of others.

In the story of the man who was mugged, were the two men who walked to the other side of the street innocent? In the same way, they were innocent of the abuse this man suffered because they were not the ones who beat him up and took his money. Yet, the list of their other sins remains. They were self-consumed, merciless, and heartless.

As for the powerful nation who legalized the killing of children, were its citizens who voted against this practice innocent? Again, they are innocent of the crime of killing children, but they are far from innocent. They are guilty of letting apathy come into their hearts and choke out love for the helpless. They are guilty of trying to keep their hands from getting dirty in an attempt to rescue a few of these lives. They are guilty thinking more about self and reputation then about the sufferings of the oppressed. They are guilty of drinking the Kool-Aid of tolerance instead of being consumed and controlled by love itself.

As it says in James 4:17, “So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.”  It is sin to do nothing when one knows the right thing to do. It is sin to walk by the suffering and look the other way. It is sin to think of self while others are mocked, or stripped naked, or beat-up, or pulled limb from limb.


Jesus said, “Which of these three, do you think, proved to be a neighbor to the man who fell among the robbers?”

He said, “The one who showed him mercy.”

And Jesus said to him, “You go, and do likewise.”

Luke 10:36-37

  • Oct 23 / 2013
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Abortion, Adoption, Pro-life, Sidewalk Counseling Ministry

I regret my abortion

It’s Saturday, October 19. It’s almost time to pack up ministry for the morning. All the girls are inside awaiting their procedures. One has walked out and left, saving her baby, to God be the glory! It’s raining pretty heavily as I walk up to Jason on the sidewalk. There are two escorts standing and chatting at the corner. I jokingly ask him if he is trying to avoid a shower later, standing directly in the rain like that. He tells me that the escorts have discussed a piece of my testimony, which I had shared with a couple of young ladies as they were walking toward the clinic. My hope was that these girls, both looking to be in their early twenties, would hear the pain they were setting themselves up for and change their minds about ending the lives of their unborn babies. I shared with them as many small bits and details of my story that I could fit in as we walked down the sidewalk. Mostly, I wanted them to know how I regretted my choice to abort my child and that God loves them and their babies so much that he would make a way for them to either keep and raise them or place them in a home with a loving family through adoption. “Women don’t regret abortion. No one regrets an abortion after they have had one,” is the conclusion these two escorts, both women, have come to. I look over at them, I look back at Jason, and I say, “Someone regrets their abortion. I regret my abortion.”

When I arrive home from the clinic I plant myself in front of my laptop and type “do women regret abortion?” into the search engine. I have researched this before, so I already know what I will find. All of the top results come from pro-choice sites and they say that women do not regret abortion. It breaks my heart to see how Satan has used these sites to lie women and make them believe their unborn children are only clumps of tissue, masses of cells. They tell them it’s a simple medical procedure and they will be able to continue their lives as if nothing ever happened, as soon as its over. They do not tell them that their babies had heartbeats just 18 days after conception and brain waves after the 6th week of pregnancy. They fail to tell them about the sadness they may feel after their children are ripped from their wombs. They don’t tell them that the date of their children’s death may be forever burned into their memories or that, even years later, they might wonder “what if I had chosen life?”.

I decide to change it up a little and I type “I regret my abortion” into the engine. Two seconds later my screen is filled with account after account and testimony after testimony of women who regret their abortions. A twenty year old lady said, “I cried and cried until I had nothing left in me but it wasn’t enough to bring my baby back to me.” Another said “ Its been 4 months now, and it still hurts like it was yesterday.” If that cannot be called regret, I’m not sure what can be. The stories of these young ladies and others like them can be found at http://www.gargaro.com/regrets.html, but there are thousands more that will pop up if you search “I regret my abortion”, showing that women do indeed regret abortion.

As for me, I was 18 years old, a few weeks from turning 19. I worked at Taco Bell. I had a 16 month old son and we lived with my parents, but they were preparing to move out of state and I would be moving in with my boyfriend. I was a party girl. I drank often and used various drugs like marijuana, cocaine, and LSD. I learned I was pregnant when I went to the health department to get on birth control. I was scared to tell anyone that I had done this again, after already having a baby at the age of 17. I waited a couple of weeks, delusional that it would just go away or that I could will it away, before I told my family and my boyfriend. The immediate response from everyone was abortion. “What in the world are you going to do with another baby? You can’t do this alone. You’ve been partying, the baby will be born sick or with disabilities. I will leave you if you have and keep this baby.” Those were the kinds of things I was hearing from my parents and boyfriend. At this point, I saw no other option and chose to go through with the abortion. My heart was heavy. Despite what doctors and nurses were saying, I knew this was a baby growing in my womb, a human life, but I continued on with the abortion. I thought I would get used to the idea, get over it. There was no way around this. The regret came immediately after I awoke from a surgical abortion. I remember thinking “I was pregnant when they put me to sleep an now I’m not…but I don’t have a baby.” I was unable to forgive myself until I met and fell in love with Jesus about 14 years later. Through his grace and mercy alone, I am forgiven and by having faith in his forgiveness, I was able to let go of the self hate I had harboured from this for so many years. I know that he is not dwelling on my sins, so I shouldn’t either. God’s forgiveness and forgiving myself have not taken the regret away. Through Jesus, I have found healing for the wounds, but that does not extinguish memories and regrets. My baby was due to be born on September 26, 1998. He would be 15 years old today, a sophomore in high school. I wonder what he would have been like. Would he look like me? I wish I could have held him. I find comfort in knowing I will meet my baby in heaven when the time comes, and we will live together eternally.

Maybe there are some women who have buried their regret after abortion. Maybe some have been lied to so fiercely by the enemy that they never had regrets. In my own personal experience, I can say that there are definitely women who regret their abortions.

  • Oct 12 / 2013
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A Woman’s Choice and Necole’s Place: Celebrating 25 years

Last night some of us had the privilege of attending our local crisis pregnancy center, A Woman’s Choice annual banquet.  This year marked the 25th anniversary of the ministry helping women and unborn children. It was a special celebration of honoring those who laid the foundation for the ministry as well as an opportunity to hear the history of A Woman’s Choice and Necole’s Place.  The ministry estimates that 8,000 children have been saved during the course of its 25 years!

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The wall behind the stage displayed 25 pictures of saved babies, one for each year the ministry has existed.  Some of the mothers of these children gave testimonials in a video played later in the program.  Many of them gave testimony as to how glad they were that they went into the wrong building on the day of their abortion appointment, but decided to stay at AWC for an ultrasound. One mother wept with emotion stating that she couldn’t imagine her life without her son she nearly aborted  Others gave thanks to AWC and Necole’s Place for the ongoing support they themselves have received after having their babies. Praise God!

Dr. Russell Moore was the keynote speaker and he reminded Christians about the spiritual warfare they face while defending image-bearers of God.  Thankfully, Christians “stand with a gospel that is unabortable!” he encouraged those listening. He later tweeted:
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If you’d like to hear Dr. Moore’s address, please contact A Woman’s Choice.  Praise the Lord for the 25 years of faithful labor and service in Christ’s name!

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  • Apr 12 / 2013
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Have You Heard the #Gosnell News?

As of tonight, #Gosnell is one of the highest trending topics on twitter. Is it because we all saw the story on the nightly news and now need to share our collective gut reactions? Or maybe we’re venting our disbelief over at those shocking new revelations that came out during today’s court proceedings?…

No, as of right now, the collective national outrage is focused on a target other than Gosnell himself. Right now, the masses are disgusted with the likes of @CBSnews, @ABC, @NBCnews, @nytimes, and the rest of the mainstream media for completely ignoring the most horrific homicide case currently unfolding.

Kirsten Powers writes in USAToday:

We’ve forgotten what belongs on page one.

Infant beheadings. Severed baby feet in jars. A childscreaming after it was delivered alive during an abortion procedure. Haven’t heard about these sickening accusations?

It’s not your fault. Since the murder trial of Pennsylvania abortion doctor Kermit Gosnell began March 18, there has been precious little coverage of the case that should be on every news show and front page.

Well thankfully, the pro-life community is making up for the media’s serious lack of coverage; and here at S4U we too want to raise our voice for the victims of 3801 Lancaster Street.

Don’t let the media bias keep you from being informed. Here’s a round up of some of today’s outstanding articles that tell us the hard to hear truth. We can’t ignore this tragedy. We can’t forget these victims. Speak for the born and the unborn – the precious lives slaughtered by Dr. Gosnell.

Philadelphia Abortion Clinic Horror – Kirsten Powers, USA Today

8 Reasons for the Media Blackout on Kermit Gosnell – Trevin Wax, Gospel Coalition

9 Things You Should Know about the Gosnell Infanticide and Murder Trial – Joe Carter, Gospel Coalition

A 15-Year-Old Allegedly Helped Kill Live Babies at Philadelphia’s Nightmare Abortion Clinic – Erin Fuchs, Business Insider

Krauthammer Explains Why News Outlets are Ignoring Infanticide – Denny Burk, dennyburk.com (multiple articles)

Gosnell Trial Coverage – 9 Articles, World Magazine

Worker at Gosnell Clinic: Baby’s Chest Moved After Neck Snipped – Steven Ertelt, LifeNews (ongoing coverage daily)

Or if you’re on twitter, I suggest following @MZHemmingway since she is constantly posting updates on the trial and its coverage (or lack thereof).

We’re hoping to see more mainstream articles released in the coming days especially as the social media outrage continues to grow. Do you want to help get the media’s attention?  Be a part of getting the news out and show them how valuable news reporting is done. We wholeheartedly agree with @OwenStrachan’s advice:

“I vote for every evangelical who has a Twitter account to Tweet about the Gosnell horror tomorrow. Social media is powerful, right?”

  • Jan 15 / 2013
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The Unspeakable Horror of Abortion

Few words are able to describe the evil that goes on behind closed doors, and it is nothing less than grace when that evil is exposed. A video has recently been circulating documenting the grotesque story of a West Philadelphia abortion clinic, a case that certainly is difficult to stomach. Yet, it is a reminder of the unspeakable horror of abortion.

Doubtlessly, pro-choice advocates will defend abortion rights by agreeing that this clinic was indeed an unfortunate case. What is needed is not the abolition of abortion on demand, what is needed is “safer” abortion clinic facilities and procedures. But this entirely misses the point. What videos like this show is not just the horrendous condition of certain abortion clinics; what this video exposes is the gruesome reality of abortion itself. The arms that are being dismembered are human arms. The spines that are severed are those of human beings. How can you deny what the photographs make so clear? How can we justify the disturbing reality of abortion? Watch the video and answer that question for yourself.

[Warning: this video contains disturbing images and content]


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